My Calling

This

This is my Calling

Call in

Call out

On call

This is living

Looking at your belly button and seeing your umbilical holding you back in creature comforts

It was your lifeline when you were drowning

But Mistaking someone's drives and desires for your own

Is like A Vampire staring at no reflection, no one looking back

And now you've found a new lifeline just as you were drowning again

Living half-hearted

I was not present for so long

I was unconscious for so long

A ghost haunting the halls of a seashell left on the seashore unsold

I longshore drifted through time

I overfed at the bottomless brunch

And drank from the bottomless spring

The tap that pours and pours

That wasn't as infinite as once thought

But what it was pouring

Was black tar from the void that rats bored in my chest

I poured out so much

I was living in a peat bog

With no core

So I wasn't sure if life was living any more

Because I had no life

I was only reminding myself

I existed when my bodily functions functioned

But you know what

Mountains are living beings

Living eyes closed, unblinking

They are a compass too

A compass pointing up, opposite of the ground

In the breeze, in the storms, in all terrain

This is our Universality

I am the Weather

I am also weathered and I remain standing

And you were my compass

I found you like a sunflower in the road

You symbolise love at first sight

And so it was at first word

And will be at last

I'm in love with the human condition and I'm ravenous

This is matrimony and I say I do

Come stand with me, join me

Singing in my Medley

Now when I look in the mirror

I know today is going to be as sunny as your smile

I see the good in me

I see the good enough in me

It is as natural as the leaves

That fall in autumn

Proud enough to say I'm proud of you

We bring the internal to the external and we do it even when we're feeling infernal

We are radical empathisers

We un-label

We accept

And if I light up even one soul

Then I have done more than can be said for us all

Will there ever be a day I reach the pinnacle

From having committed myself wholeheartedly

So much that it's used my whole body, my whole heart completely

And I can't even remember the person I was when I started

If it's one thing, I've learned so far it’s that

I am not a poet

I poet

I poem

I storytell

I am doing not labelling

I am Verb

I am living

I am actively living

And this, this is my calling

Otherwise I swear to god if I end up

Like another sheep to be sheared of its creativity

When my heart is full of so much lividity

That'll be the end of me

I think it's time I give myself a shot

Otherwise I'll end up as another pea in the pod

Making a miniscule impact, pee wee

Living life like a hermit crab,

Just another pebble on the seashore

Longshore adrift